Physically I was exhausted - I think I may have developed sleep apnea at that time as well - not sure if it was related or not, but I was only sleeping in 20-30 minute increments towards the end. I was vomiting, had diarrhea, nosebleeds and major pain and tenderness in the abdomen. My feet and hands were swollen as well. Post-partum, I had blurriness and my hemoglobin was quite low, resulting in an extra day in the hospital for monitoring.
Emotionally I felt as though my body had failed me, and I mourned for the pregnancy that I didn't get to have - the big belly pictures, packing my hospital bag, the VBAC, being awake for his birth, nursing him right away, rooming in, taking him home, etc. Still not over the trauma of back-to-back miscarriages before this pregnancy, I was very sad that I didn't get to be awake for my son's birth. I saw a therapist after the birth to help me work through the trauma.
My story starts at the end of 2011.
During the day of New Year's Eve, we threw a party for my parents who were celebrating their 40th wedding anniversary the following week. Despite being exhausted, I took a nap after the party so that I would have the energy to go out later and enjoy my family who had come into town. That night I went out to an expensive dinner with my brothers and ordered a steak that I didn’t touch. It is not like me to cancel on a night out, but I was in intense pain and my family commented that there was no color in my face. We went home and ended up calling my doctor. I hated to bother him on New Year's Eve, but I was very frightened. This was my fourth pregnancy, but only the second pregnancy that had gone this far. Having miscarried twice before, I was already on edge.
I gave my doctor a list of symptoms (chills and pressure) and he told me that it’s very possible that the baby was turning (he had been transverse) and he told me to rest. If things don't get worse, if there were no contractions, I should come into the office on Tuesday, which was still two days away. He also told me to modify my diet because I was probably going into a little bit of sugar shock, causing the chills.