I didn't have time to think about HELLP. I was very sick and it hit very fast.
My husband and I tried for 8 years to have a baby. We were excited to find out I was pregnant July 18, 2012, suddenly! I had a normal and uneventful pregnancy. We found out we were going to have a boy and named him Henry James (after my father and husband). January 17, 2013 I went to bed with Henry kicking up a storm at 11:00 p.m. I woke up at 12:08 A.M. feeling like I was having a heart attack. We went to Presbyterian Plano and they could not find a heartbeat.
I was 29 weeks 6 days and found out I lost my baby. All I could do is call my parents and the only words I could say was Henry is dead. As blunt as that was I was in shock. I was VERY sick with my blood pressure 220/185, my liver failing and my platelets below 50,000. We found out I was diagnosed with HELLP syndrome and my body was shutting down. I had an emergency C section and put on magnesium. All I remembered was asking if he was out and kind of seeing him on the side. I did not know what to do or say when they brought him to my room. I was still sick and for 3 months I did not remember even holding him.
I just remember crying and not understanding what all had happened. I was very fortunate that the community I live in donated money so we were able to pay to bury him in the family cemetery. We had meals delivered for 3 weeks to us and a shop even asked for donations for me. From candles, to books, massage, free lawn care, it was so overwhelming nice. As many of you have read, I helped a family with twins and took photos on what would have been my first Mother's Day (I am a photographer). I have struggled with grief (and still do) but I wanted to pay it forward somehow.
Exactly a year to date, July 18, 2013, I found out I was pregnant. I had an extremely difficult (physical and emotional pregnancy) including 13 hospitalizations and even surgery at 24 weeks. February 25, 2014 I delivered a healthy baby boy Ben. I still wanted to pay it forward and decided to start this organization to help women and families with new babies. This has started to really help heal my wounds of my loss.